Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Piercing Experiences: Nipples

Most of my life, my nipples have been horribly insensitive.  I’d know if someone was touching them, but they were rarely pleasurable.  Sure, they could be hurt and it wasn’t hard to cause them pain.  But again, there was no gap between being aware of sensation and the sensation of pain.  Some pigs enjoy the nipple pain.  There was no pleasure, or pain/pleasure combination.  I didn’t get enjoyment from the pain, and I still don’t.

What I learner over time though was that after really rough nipple play (hey, even though I didn’t enjoy it, I’d be bound and couldn’t (wouldn’t?) object to what the top did), my nipples would be pleasurably sensitive to very light touches afterwards.  When the contact was kept light, the sensation effectively short circuited my brain.  I didn’t go into sensory overload, per se, but all of my attention would snap to the feeling of the light caresses of my nipple’s nubs.  I would go slack-jawed as my eyes closed and I would sigh at the sensation.

I loved those feelings when they would happen, but I rarely let people push me hard enough and the people who I did play with that were likely to push that hard were unlikely to be of the type to be so gentle afterwards.  I can count only a handful of instances where I had that experience.

That changed in July 2008.

I’d been talking with a Master in MD for some years and he’d shown an interest in helping me with a fantasy of mine.  I knew I wanted my nipples pierced and also knew I’d be too much a coward to follow through.  July 4th weekend in 2008, I found myself strapped down to the bondage table in his basement.  I was completely immobilized: mitts, blindfold, straps over arms, legs, torso.  Adding in head and chin straps completely removed my freedom of motion.  I was stuck.

And while I was completely stuck, I got stuck.  14 gauge needles (1.6 mm) went through first one then the other of my nipples.  Stars exploded behind my eyes.  If not for the blindfold, I’m sure I’d have had tunnel vision.

After Healing
Immediately, the “wiring” got connected.  That “lost in the feeling” experience came all the time now.  For the first few months, even the motion of my t-shirts would be horribly distracting.
I loved it... except for the fact that people seeing a new piercing tend to gravitate to playing with it.  For the next year and a half, my nipples would be almost healed when someone would play with them just a bit too much.  (Yes, I was guilty of this myself).  One or the other nipple would get irritated and then infected.  It was never anything bad, just really annoying.

Around January 2010, I took out the left nipple ring.  It was the one that gave me the most problems.  The nipple healed up in days, but the hole itself was completely closed within hours.

I originally started off with some circular barbells, but I think they may have been better off starting with a straight barbell initially.  I switched out to straight barbells while healing.  They didn't get hooked on or in things quite so easily.

I'm currently wearing a 10ga circular barbell which I'll occasionally switch out for a captured segment ring, which I'm quite fond of.

Since then, my nipples have been quite sensitive.  It's easy to cause me pain with them, and I still don't enjoy that pain.  In fact, I find that once they've been used to cause me pain, I don't enjoy nipple play for a while afterwards.  It's not until they're back to the new norm that I enjoy them.

I may get the left nipple re-pierced, I haven't decided.  I'll probably need to be strapped down again for that, because it hurt that much.  My other piercings were MUCH easier.  But those are other stories

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