Wednesday, May 25, 2011

And that ends the device...

Well, after 7 weeks of constant compression, my nether region has finally rebelled. Between the irritation that was already underway from the device plus the added problems from being jabbed by the cable, I've removed the device this evening.

Actually, without the PA cable to hold my shaft in, it was trivially easy to extract my cock from the cage. I'm definitely a grower, not a shower. My balls have shrunk some it seems. But that might just be my perception. In any case, once the shaft was out, it practically fell off.

I've not talked with my keyholder yet, as it's late and I'm going to bed. But I did mail him to let him know. I intend to follow through with not wanking for the remainder of the agreed upon period. Besides, it's IML... I really shouldn't need to jerk myself.

In other news... Soap is so very much my friend right now.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Chastity: 7 weeks in!

So I've been locked up now for 7 weeks.  It's been frustrating.  As I mentioned last week I got a week and a half ago.  So it's been two orgasms in 7 weeks.  *shudder*

I've been fairly... I wouldn't call it resigned, but certainly mellow about this round of chastity.  Until now.  Ran into a snafu this morning that's going to make things a little more difficult.

I'd been using the "PA Cable" from to keep myself from pulling out.  Well, after noticing a little irritation this morning, I was feeling around and felt a sharp jab from the PA cable.  A quick call to JW and a learned cryptex combination later, I find the problem.

It seems the PA cable's frayed.  It was a pretty sharp jab at that.  So now I could easily pull out of this device.  I find that more than mildly disappointing.

I've emailed the vendor.  They've been fairly responsive on other past issues, I'm hopeful they'll come back with a reasonable response.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Blogs: Sparky's "No Safe Word"

Sparky in 2003
There's this hot man that I've known for a few years, ever since he was the cute pup at my birthday party in 2003.  I'd travelled out to Seattle to visit some friends. 

Since then, he's done a lot of growing up and become quite the accomplished pervert himself.

You can check out his interests, his photography, and his ongoing exploration at his blog, "No Safe Word" (as opposed to "no safeword"...  which is a whole other barrel of fun).

Friday, May 20, 2011

GearBlast at IML 2011

GearBlast IML 2011
Friday, May 27 @ 10:00pm
Regency Ballroom B, Hyatt Regency Chicago
Music: Dave Huge
No Cover

People tell me "But I don't have gear!"  Well, you've got lots of options!
  • Lycra and spandex
  • Latex, thin or thick
  • Sports gear of any kind
  • Motorcycle gear of any kind: motocross, racing, cruising
  • SCUBA wetsuits
  • Spacesuit? Come in from the vacuum
  • Fursuiters, bring your heads
  • Superheroes, bring your supersuit
  • Uniforms? Don't forget the cuffs
  • Hazmat? Does your mask have drinking straw attachments?
  • Snowmobile and down suits
  • Skinhead? Laces & braces
  • And seeing as it is Internation Mister Leather, bring that too
If you want to see previous years of GearBlast, check out the photos from past events:

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Story:Boys Should Be Seen, part 2

Boys Should Be Seen

Part 2

Contains: Rubber, bondage, non-consent, mind control, SciFi
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What follows is a piece of fiction. Any similarity to living persons is coincidental. The author does not condone the activities described herein, though he has been known to enjoy similar activities himself.
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I must have fallen asleep, because I awoke up to screaming. My screaming. My cock, balls and ass were again on fire from the electricity. I don't know how long I've been here in this position. Hooded, sleep sacked, and strapped down hard. If movement were open to me, I'd be jumping around, thrashing in pain. It was lasting longer this time, or maybe the process of waking made it seem that way
As it was, my thrashing in my bonds continued for a couple of moments after the power was cut. Laying there, panting, the voice returned, "I'll ask again, are you awake, boy?"
"Yes sir!" I was on the verge of tears and panic, but managed to respond. Several times now had I been woken like that. It was wearing on my sanity. I knew I dared not break into tears... as I had done once already. Any noise seemed to trigger the electricity, even my sobs.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Chastity at 6 weeks in

Chastity probably isn't the right term for this, as I'm allowed to get off and play with others.  But it is the easiest short-hand term for what's going on.  It's easier to say "i'm in chastity" than to say "i'm on a regimen to keep from jerking off because otherwise I rely too much on myself for pleasure and not others and it plays well into my desire to be under someone else's control."

I did get off this past weekend.  After helping out with set-up for the Chicago Hellfire Club party on Saturday, I was duct-taped into a chair, gagged with the duct tape (thank goodness I keep my hair and beard short), was then unlocked and was gotten to the edge of coming pretty quickly.  Add a little lube and 10 minutes later I'm being let up to clean off.

(Btw, is the smell of duct tape an aphrodesiac for anyone else?)

The device had been on for almost 4 weeks straight at that point, so I and the device both needed a bit of cleaning - aromatic would be a polite way to put it.  I was allowed time to clean, adjust and reapply the device, then it was locked back on.

So I'm locked up through June 1.  I'll be locked through IML, but I'll have the lockbox with me, and my keyholder on speed-dial in order to get unlocked for any potential play.

6 weeks of chastity.  2 orgasms.  Ugh.

I talked with my keyholder over the weekend as well.  He hit some nice headspace buttons when he told me that "No, you don't want to be in chastity.  You need to be in chastity."  He's right, but it's frustrating.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Blogs: A year under lock and key

A year under lock and key...  not my personal goal, but who knows how long I might let last this chastity run I'm currently on.  But no, I'm referring to Smarmaduke.  He's somewhat my inspiration for chastity this time around.  This young whipper snapper signed up for a full year of chastity with his long distance boyfriend and his local sir having complete control over when and how he can get off.

What's more, he's giving us a day by day record of what's going through his head as he endures and enjoys his confinement.  If someone deserves to be followed, this boy is one.  He's putting in an effort to provide daily content.

Follow him at his blog and find out what long term chastity is really like:

Monday, May 9, 2011

Poorly defined desires, 215-534-267

With this recent round of chastity, it's allowing me to think more about what I want from kink.

As I mentioned previously, I find myself wanting a master of some sort.  JW and I had discussed this recently.  He's a good friend and an excellent top and keyholder.  However, we agree that he's not going to be the one to have a permanent collar on me.  He's got a full plate with his own boy.

So my thoughts on slavery and submission are nothing new.  I periodically explore this side of my personality.  The idea of being property is appealing to me on some level.  Like having a contract which can be passed along.  That's part of what drove me to register for an "SLRN" around this time last year.  Another part was the idea that having someone claim ownership would be . . . a positive boost for my ego.

Of course, thoughts of slavery, of having a chain locked around my neck are tempered by my aggressive nature, desire to top, and of course, my relationship with Rocket.  He always comes first.  And the way I feel in relationships, it would take much work for me to establish a real connection with a top/sir/master/etc without having some kind of effect on my primary relationship.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Happy Chastity "Anniversary"

It's been one month, 31 days since I was last able to pleasure myself.  By the standing chastity rules, it'll be at least another 24 days.

I'm horny, that's a given.  What wasn't a given was the urgent need to come I have experience the past couple of days.  By urgent, I mean that simply sitting at my desk or in the car, I had the distinct impression that i could almost spontaneously have an orgasm.

Being horny hasn't surprised me.  What has surprised me is that I haven't taken advantage of the ability to get off.  The rules allow for me to get off.  Heck, getting off by others was kind of one of the cornerstones of my original intention for this escapade.  In actuality, I've had one orgasm, and that was by a blow job over two weeks ago while I was released for a cleaning.

I'm having some minor irritations around the device.  My skin, as usual is getting rubbed pretty raw.  If I didn't have the keyholder I do, I'd probably be out by now.  It's not that he's cruel, it's that I know that he'll push back if I ask for some kind of reprieve.  That's why I've asked him to keyhold for me, because he'll keep me honest.  And since I know he'll push back, I'm not complaining about the minor problems.  I'll hold off until there's a legitimate concern.

So far, the skin irritation has been able to be handled by using some antibiotic ointment.  I'm using petroleum based Neosporin with pain reliever in this case.  It keeps things lubricated and supresses a little of the irritation.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Story:Eternal Rubber, Chapter 4

Eternal Rubber

Chapter 4

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Alex woke in the morning curled up on a large pillow. As he had been since the night before, he was surrounded by the smells of rubber and sweat and sex. He’d lost track of how many men’s crotches he’d sniffed and more in the bar.
Yawning and stretching with his paws out in front of him, he realized that they weren’t paws anymore. His hands were hands again! They were still enclosed in rubber gloves which ran up his arms but they were able to open up fully and flex individually.
Immediately, he jumped to his feet to inspect his surroundings. He had been sleeping on a large latex covered pillow on the floor… of someone’s room not his own. He caught movement out of the corner of his eye and whipped around to face it.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Chastity check-in, 3.5 weeks

To bring people up to date and clarify things for myself: I decided to sign up for another month of chastity. The reasons for my chastity still remain. “Chastity” may not be the correct term for it. An intense form of come control would be more accurate. I mean, the defining quality of this arrangement is that I am not allowed to get myself off, nor play with myself while unlocked.

Chastity affects my temper and mood.

As enthusiastic and optimistic as I’ve been and may have seemed online at times, this was actually in question. On Friday Apr 29th, I was in a rather foul mood. Those who follow my twitter feed may have noticed that I was seriously questioning continuing the endeavor.

My libido had crashed, I was irritable, even had a slight headache and a minor anxiety attack. Very little things became huge, crushing, insurmountable problems. Thankfully, this is not my first time at the rodeo, as it were. I know from past experience that chastity does a number on my emotions at times. The build-up of testosterone from not getting off and the change in routine can really try me.

To further accentuate my mental agitation, this is the first time I’ve done a chastity regimen with a device that lasted more than a two or three days. This is the first time that I’ve had a prolonged period of not jerking off as the result of a device which I could not readily remove. That can be rather frustrating.

I ended up cancelling a play date that I had on Friday night because of all of the above plus the stress of a 2 hour traffic-hell commute home. However, after getting sufficient sleep on Friday night, I felt much better. When I woke up Saturday in the better mood is when I made the decision to sign up for more.

Other thoughts

Despite having a keyholder that’s local and a husband who’s several states away (temporarily), I still find myself wanting a master of some sort. I still need to write my thoughts on the matter. However, someone has already a very good post on the topic of Masters, slaves, and slavery which expresses many of my views on the topic. I don’t think I found anything I disagree with in it.

Check out Cager, aka BerlinQueer’s blog entry on 24/7 Slavery. He's another man I've not met partially because I'm intimidated, partially because I didn't want to waste his time and partially because I don't think he was in town the one time I was in Berlin and able to play freely.